monday musings on overthinking

I have a problem ... okay, I have lots of problems but we're going to talk about one in particular today ... overthinking. I wasn't always this way but it seems like the older I get, the less I trust my decisions. Isn't it supposed to be the other way around? You get wiser (or maybe that's just a higher dose of don't-give-a-shit) as you age?

Anywhoo ... over the last few months, it's gotten even worse. For every decision that needs to be made, I have arguments for and against, I triple guess, and I make my family nuts with questions and backtracking and what-should-I-dos. 

Some are laughable (once I put the brakes on the spin-cycle of thoughts). Should I send that query out or stop? Should I keep reading this book even though I'm really not digging it?  

Some are more problematic. Do I say yes to letting my kid hang out with friends? Which of the various story ideas do I want to write on next.

And some are impossible. Should I book myself into a hotel or Inn for a few days to write and refill the creative well? When and how can I go visit my parents?

Last week I talked about looking at the positive instead of dwelling on the negative. Today, as I overthink into my fourth cup of coffee, I'm starting to think that maybe I've had entirely too much caffeine already. Or not?

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